Seeing all this division and chaos what is one to do? Not being dependent on some saviour or authority, where do we look for light? Being broken up with contradictory desires, having no love, how are we to observe? Does one fragment observe the rest? The observer is violence. Can you observe at the moment of violence or anger without the censor? Is there dullness if I don't compare? Do you understand anything through comparison?
Ending fear, both hidden and open. Fear is a movement away from "what is". Can a fearful, dependent mind know joy or love? Will analysis free the mind from fear? Analysis implies time. Is analysis a fragment of the ego? Are fear and pleasure interrelated? Sustaining pleasure and maintaining fear, thought separates itself as the analyser. Clarity of thought is needed but it also breeds fear, so what is one to do?
Isn't our actual daily life disorder? In pleasure there is frustration, pain, dependency is that love? Why has sex become so important? Can the mind be so awake that it needs no experience, no challenge? Through the negation of what is not love, you come to that which is love. Without understanding living, love, death, meditation is merely an escape, a form of self-hypnosis.
Every form of search must come to an end in meditation. Order comes with understanding disorder. Is control necessary for order, do we need it when there is understanding of "what is"? Without love that is not touched by pleasure, meditation is self-hypnosis. The mind must be quiet to observe. If you have this extraordinary thing going on in your life, it is everything; you are the teacher, the student, the beauty of the cloud and that is love.